You ever wonder why we’re here…

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… It’s one of life’s great mysteries indeed. Ugh, looking back at my last update I have the broken record sound and really depressing …

In all accounts, 2020 was a train wreck, easily one of the worst years I have ever had, probably the worst that most people have had in recent memory. It started off with medical problems, then medical problems with family, then a good psychological blow just a week before my birthday. So, within the first half of the year I was pretty well in a bad place. Add to that 20 anniversary of Dad’s passing, a Global Pandemic, not able to travel, and a collection of abusive selfish leach-like people. By the end of the year I had just about checked out mentally – burned out.

I know I am not the only one that had problems last year but, I can only speak for myself. I feel that it is worth acknowledging (without all the specifics) “Yes, some bad stuff happened and was really depressing” definitely helps putting a cap on those things. Continuing to talk about the problems is just giving mistakes of the past year free reign to keep bringing me down. It is a new year and after a few weeks in, looking a lot different than last year, not exactly brighter, but different.

I am starting off this year by clearing out the backlog of things that I wanted to do last year but did not get off the ground. One habit I really have to break is this streak of needing everything to be perfect when I do not have a set timeline – as in “I want to do this, you know sometime …”. There is not too much that was gathering dust, but I did want to put this up first though – if nothing else, just to have clarity and direction in my own mind.

This is not that whole “New Year, New Me” bullshit, because I was trying that last year – I completed training for Autopsy (digital forensic software), I had joined a gym (pandemic hit a week later… no joke), I was trying to be more outgoing with people I cared about (… then a week before my birthday …), I tried to be decent to leaches (almost got into a brawl). Nope, this is me dusting off, reloading, and re-engaging life. Here is a list of what I have in store…

  • Robots begging for their lives
  • Tales from the thrift store
  • A Browser Based Laptop
  • Unreal Tournament
  • Community
  • An infinite universe
  • Being terrible at video games
  • Strange fixin’s for technical problems

Stick around, going to be an adventure!